The one who got away.

I recently watched a movie (a very horribly done one) that was based on " the one who got away" and this mans quest to get her back. It got me to thinking, "There's always that one who got away" doesn't have to be true. If you have someone, and you know it's meant to be, just don't give them an excuse to leave... And if they do leave, well then, you should probably just accept the fact that the world has other plans for you and it just might be the next person that is the one you are meant to hold on to.

weird timing, bad timing, or perfect timing?

I've had several people refer to love at first sight today, so this is how I feel about it.

I've never believed in love at first sight. I still don't. I believe that love is a compilation of memories, experiences, and emotions shared over a stretch of time. You can really learn to love any one. From person to person, it won't be the same, but you'll have moments where you will say to yourself, "Hey, this feels familiar."

A question for myself is, if I don't believe in love at first sight, then what should I call that feeling when you see someone you don't know and your body/mind tells you there some connection there? A deeper connection, beyond physical attraction. I know, positively, it is not love. I have loved. Maybe not as much as I could love someone else, but enough to know what it is. I suppose not every emotion needs a name and not every situation needs a title, but it's something I'd like to help myself understand.

One other thing I'd like to touch upon.. I don't really understand how someone could say they love you after one or two weeks of seeing each other. I know so many people who just throw it in the equation. I really believe it's losing it's meaning. Friends will just start saying it, or typing it, and in reality, they barely know the person they claim to love. How does that make sense? Call me old fashion, but say it and mean it. Understand it and feel it.

buckets of rain bob dylan

If you're reading this, you're just as bored as me.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

LAST

1. last beverage: coffee

2. last phone call: my dad

3. last text message: Amber

4. last song you listened to: Nantes -Beirut

5. last time you cried: A while ago.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = Yes.

7. been cheated on = I don't think so.

8. kissed someone & regretted it = Yes.

9. lost someone special = Unfortunately.

10. been depressed = No.

11. been drunk and threw up = Regrettably.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Brown

13. Blue

14. Green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)

15. Made a new friend?: Tons.

16. Fallen out of love?: Yes.

17. Laughed until you cried?: All the time.

18. Met someone who changed you?: No.

19. Found out who your true friends were?: Already knew.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes, haha. That was actually quite comical.

21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list ?: Possibly.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life:Everyone one, minus one.

24. Do you have any pets: Maya and Simon.

25. Do you want to change your name? No, I love my name.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Went to the Old Port.

27. What time did you wake up today: 8:10am.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Falling asleep.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: London.

30. Last time you saw your Mother: Yesterday.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could have my dog with me. :-(

32. What are you listening to right now: So many noises. 2 tv's, a washing machine, the heater, me typing, and water in the kettle.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yes.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Well, I'm a little edgy because I had too much coffee, but that's pretty much it.

35. Most visited webpage: FB and Gmail.

37. Nicknames: Molly.

38. Relationship Status: Single.

39. Zodiac Sign: Cancer.

40. He or She?: What?

41. Elementary?: Raymond.

42. Middle School?: Jordan Small.

43. High School?: Hall-dale.

44. Hair Color?: Brown.

45. Long or short?: Long.

46. Height: 5'7"

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not really. There are people I enjoy spending time with though.

48: What do you like about yourself?: Most things.

49. Piercings?: A few.

50. Tattoos?: Someday soon.

51. Righty or lefty? Left.

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery = Not yet!

53. First piercing = ears.

54. First best friend(s)= Liz Stevenson.

55. First sport you joined = T-ball.

58. First pair of trainers= Not sure. But did I did notice that 57 was missing.

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating - Nothing.

60. Drinking - Coffee. I should probably stop.

61. I'm about to - Go buy some groceries at the market.

62. Listening to : Like I said before, so many things.

63. Waiting for: 6pm when I get out of work.

64. Want kids? Sure, someday.

65. Get Married? ...way later.

66. Career? I've had a career for a few years.

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes? = eyes. Both?

68. Hugs or kisses = Realllly like hugs. Big fan.

69. Shorter or taller = That's not so important.

70. Older or Younger = Older I guess.

71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic. Spontaneous is good but how they are like everyday is more important.

72. Nice stomach or nice arms= Stomach.

73. Sensitive or loud = Loud I think.

74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker haha. Not too much trouble, but I like people who like to have fun.

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = Yes.

78. Lost glasses/contacts = Nope.

79. Sex on first date =

80. Broken someone's heart = Unfortunately.

81. Had your own heart broken = Once.

83. Turned someone down = Yes.

84. Cried when someone died = Yes..

85. Fallen for a friend = Life story. (Hey folks- this is a bad thing to do.)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself = Always.

87. Miracles = No.

88. Love at first sight = Not really.

89. Heaven = Yes.

90. Santa Claus = haha I wish he were real. That would be AWESOME.

91. Kiss on the first date= Sure, if it feels right.

92. Angels = No.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

93. Had more than one bf/gf? at a time?: Nah.

94. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: A few people.

95. Did you sing today?: Not yet. I sing everyday though.

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Never.

97. Is there a time where you could go back and change something?: One thing.

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Probably skiing at Sugarloaf with Alyssa. I would relive that day every day. One of the best/most surreal days of my life!

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Lets just see what happens.

100. Posting this as 100 truths? Nope.

What's your perspective?

I have recently noticed how different my reactions are from that of my friends and family. Understandably, we are all individual and come from different upbringings, but it got me thinking, how is it that I view a situation so different than that of the person sitting right beside me seeing the exact same thing I am seeing. This little rant has nothing to do with me thinking they are right or wrong, it's just interesting to me.

I was waiting in line at Hannaford to get rung up and there was a lady in front of me, paying for her groceries. She accidentally gave the lady $1 short of the total, so the cashier asked her for another dollar, what I thought was politely. The customer heard the cashier ask for the dollar in a snappy tone and started yelling all sorts of absurd things (Some of which didn't make sense or even work in that sentence.) Threw the dollar at her, and took off.

What I was thinking was, maybe the cashier was being snappy, maybe I don't recognize it. Maybe the customer wanted to get mad at someone and the cashier was the closest person. How can one really tell. I mean, there are some situations where it is extremely obvious that someone is being very polite, and in this case the cashier was being pretty neutral. (Not really smiling or showing enthusiasm)

Maybe that's what I'll do this winter. A little project. I'll watch peoples reactions in certain situations, jot it down in a notepad, and then write what I gathers from the situation.

This could be interesting.

Life: Today and a little bit of Yesterday.: you beg, steal, you borrow

Life: Today and a little bit of Yesterday.: you beg, steal, you borrow: "Hold on.It goes by so fast. In this city, there is so much to do, but I have yet to try any of it. I've found the few things ..."

you beg, steal, you borrow

Hold on.

It goes by so fast.

In this city, there is so much to do, but I have yet to try any of it. I've found the few things that make me happy, and I stick to them. One, is my weekly trip to my favorite cafe where I buy a medium house-roast coffee, banana bread, and sit in my favorite corner. The other things is riding my bike to the pier at night, watching the boats, occasionally bringing a friend and a bottle of some bubbly. There is just something about being near the water that seems to have a place in my heart.

On a recent late night trip to the pier, I went with one of my best friends AP. The trip to the pier didn't really have any purpose other than to just sit there. We both enjoy the place and find the water comforting.

So here we are, two girls, sharing a bottle of Riesling and discussing our many woes and troubles as of lately. It was nice, we weren't alone, but there was no one disturbing us. We discussed things in detail and tried and figure out a few of life's questions.

Nothing was really accomplished or solved, but by the time we both got home, a weight had been lifted off our shoulders, and I had a great nights sleep. You can't really ask for anything more.